Why my self esteem was so low in high school.

Archangel Joined: 07 Oct 2006 Posts: 89 Location: Detroit

I was always a chunky kid. I still am. But I am content with my weight. Other's weren't though. I attended 4 high schools in 4 years. Every school yea, a new school. I found that at every school, it was always the same. If you had a pimple, or you had a little fat, or you wore vintage clothes, you were a freak, geek, nerd, or dork. For years, even elementary and middle school I was picked on by almost everyone. I was called fat, weird, and dumb, and almost every other name in the book. The other kids took pride in making me cry. It hurt so much that I would tell my mom I was sick so I wouldn't have to go to school and deal with the torture of other kids. But after a while, I got over it, and I didn't care what they said about me anymore. But because of all the mean things that people said to me, I have never really been good in big social events such as a dance or a dinner party. I clam up because I still feel the effects from school. Even if someone says they like me, im so afraid that they are talking about me behind my back. Im slowly working on getting over that, but it's taking some time. But anyways, I guess what's the cause of why my self esteem is so low to this day. But it's getting higher each day. My fiancee helps me though it sometimes to. When I feel like giving up, he reaches out and pulls me to my feet once again and pushes me forward.

Posted: Mon Oct 09, 2006 4:15 pm

sorry school was so pants 4 u. i was bullied at school 2. i hated it and they really got to me everytime they called me something but i always tried to hide the fact from them cus i didnt want them to see they were winning. i used to go home each night and cry in my room. suppose it had a big affect on me 2 and knocked my self esteem

Archangel Joined: 07 Oct 2006 Posts: 89 Location: Detroit

It does have a big affect on a persons self esteem. I never let them see my cry either. When I was at shool, I was always quiet, because I didn't want to say anything to provoke them. But, it's all over now, and I don't have to deal with that. I just try to forget about what was said, and move on. But being picked on in school as made me a kinder person. Personally, I think that the people that pick on others should be picked on back, then they would know how it feels to be picked on.

Posted: Mon Oct 09, 2006 4:19 pm

i dont like bullies, who the hell are they to make others feel like shit??? however i would never pick on them to get back at them.. i think then that makes me just as bad as them, and they really aint worth my energy. one day they will get what they deserve.. we all will

Archangel Joined: 07 Oct 2006 Posts: 89 Location: Detroit

That's true. I have never picked on anyone and never will, because I know it hurts.

Posted: Mon Oct 09, 2006 6:37 pm

I went through the same thing. all through elementary i was teased and put down and bullied, and just made me feel like really stupid and like shit. it got so bad sometimes it would turn a little rough and they would hurt me physically. In the new junior high i was already trained to sit down and keep my mouth shut, ya know because whatever i had said through elementary people said what i said was stupid. anyways the junior high kids thought i was weird because i was so silent and awkward and didnâ€™t really know how to openly react to them, so they bullied me for a bit but then eventually left me alone. I think now i am still slowly learning to have a higher self esteem and speak what i think and not let people walk all over me, this is thanks to the few friends i made in junior high, and also to my mom who helped me as well. i really felt ashamed back then just ashamed of everything i was, everything that happened to me....i still have a really hard time speaking my mind and making friends with people in high school, im in 12th grade now. I am really sorry you had to go through that Krissy, i know how it feels.

Posted: Tue Oct 10, 2006 3:50 am

I was never teased or anything but I still ended up with low self esteem O.o

Principalitie Joined: 07 Oct 2006 Posts: 193 Location: USA

I have low self esteem issues from my abuse but i was also made fun of... since i had a little extra padding when i was a kid... I am sorry about that Sad

Posted: Tue Oct 10, 2006 4:01 am

I have no idea why I've low self esteem. I ought to be a perfectly happy kid